Too many thoughts...

Hmm...

Well first of all, I am very new to this and I dont even know how this thing works. I mean blogging.

I think it has something to do with telling your thoughts out aloud, even if nobody is interested in listening to them. :)

So I am a beginner, a novice, a naive new user of the blogging world, who is not much aware of the tricks of the trade for surviving here, but then I am here only to share the excessive thoughts which my mind or my brain is not able to store. Therefore, in order to prevent these thoughts from overflowing into the ether space, I am going to try and save it for the future, when I would be more wise and less stupid and so that I could open this blog up and think to myself "WOW!! I have come a long way... ".

First things first!!! The title of my Blog Page is very much "pun intended". Chosen after giving a lot of thought actually. ;)

So what the hell am I thinking that cannot be accomodated in my cranium and needs letting out?? A lot of things. Actually, according to my doc, my mind is not able to rest. It keeps running, calculating, doing stuff even when I'm asleep. Yeah I know that very well makes me an insomniac (so here's the pun) with some 'very-difficult-to-remember-name" syndrome. After coming to this conclusion, my doc advised me or prescribed me to find an outlet to all these accumulated thoughts, so that I get a good night sleep. She prescribed a diary, and I chose blog. :) ;) So here it goes..........

I am a person with a lot of dreams. Dreams as in, not the ones that you dream while sleeping. As you know I am suffering from a sleep disorder, I am not so lucky to have dreams or nightmares in some cases. I am talking about the dreams that somebody like me would have during the day, while working, during a conversation that has become insanely boring, while sitting in the bus on the way back home, while trying to concentrate on a training program that has turned into a disaster as the trainer is stammering and the trainee is feeling soporific, while cooking etc. etc. There are so many times that I have found myself dreaming in broad daylight. I do not normally dream about my prince in shining armour or me in a wedding gown. As I would be getting married in the near future, not quite in the same way as I had dreamt as a kid, I have completely stopped "dreaming" about all that. I don't dream about fantasies either.

My dreams are more about who I am. I dream of stories that I have never been able to pen down. I dream about my friends who are not anymore in touch with me. I dream about my family, as its been more than 3 and half years and I have not been able to leave behind my freedom and go back to them. And very recently, I have started dreaming about my future. Getting married is definitely on the cards. That is actually the only thing I'm certain about. So I dream about my future and I see my wedding day. Every girl's day dream, noon dream, evening dream and night dream. ;) For me this is an inevitable truth, and I cannot deny it. For me, it is going to change everything. My future, is attached with this one incident.

So....It is 4.45 pm on a Thursday evening, and instead writing a very crucial piece of code, I am writing my blog. What a nice way of spending some quality time, emptying my bucket of thoughts which was overflowing. I'd try writing some of my long forgotten stories the next time. Till then.......